The things that have been happening/what I’ve been feeling so far this semester are making my sophomore year feel like it’s my first year in college. I’m making so many mistakes. I wish I could say I’m learning from them, but maybe that will come later. Last year I was still pretty close to home so I could cry on my mother’s shoulder whenever I wanted, my relationship didn’t have any problems, and all of my friends where there. I’m 6 hours away from home making more mistakes than I ever would have if I would have just stayed where I was. I feel like there’s no one here to comfort me when I really need it the most. I can’t keep bothering my friends because they have their own problems and their own lives. I can’t keep expecting people to drop everything because I’m upset. I thought I was unhappy last year but that was nothing compared to how I’m feeling now. I’m scared to try to change my situation because I’m always doing things that I think will make me happy and I manage to make everything worse. I don’t know what to do anymore.
So it turns out I’m really stupid. Someone say I told you so.
second year of college and I still really want to drop out
my mother would actually kill me though so I probably won’t
honestly I’ll cry if I ever graduate
When you confront white girls about their casual racism, so many of them “literally don’t even give a shit”. Stop white girl constipation 2k14.
- 15-year-old me: MOM I'm practically an ADULT ugggh you never let me do ANYTHING in olden times i could get MARRIED *eye roll into another dimension*
- me now: for my birthday i want food and to stay on your health insurance
I hate singing when I’m drunk because my ears don’t work well enough to tell if I’m in the right key or not. I cant hear myself
"Hit me my thesis is due in 12 hours and I haven’t started it"
"Hit me I have a final in an hour and I didn’t study"
"Hit me I’ve been on a 24 hour drinking binge and I’m invincible"
"Hit me. You’re a university vehicle and I’ll get free tuition."
"Hit me I feel like a failure anyway"
I love my skin!
- EUROPE: Why the fuck are we always getting sick? Is it demons? Is it ghosts? Is it a curse?
- EVERYBODY ELSE: Have you tried washing your ass?
Because at an HBCU, there’s a black community throughout the campus that gives the sense of unity. When black people go to a PWI (predominately white institution), their black body is less valued. Their sense of unity is condensed to a club or an association. HBCU’s are…
Everything is temporary; the good and the bad. Therefore, I celebrate everything for what it is, whenever it is.
There’s no fear in things that we don’t see coming so I’m deciding to live life without any expectations. I don’t wanna keep trying to predict everything and give myself anxiety for my remaining years. I wanna allow everything to flow naturally and just celebrate it for what it is.